Fuck

I don't think I've been this depressed in a long time. Come this Thursday, I'm supposed to be experiencing one of the biggest days of my life, and now that's being taken away from me in every sense. I'm completely devastated. Not only that this is now ruined, but the fact that not a single person around me cares. Its hard to feel proud when no one is around to share it. Actually, there are people around, they just don't care. don't care don't care don't care. I can type it over and over and it doesn't make it any less depressing. I have shrunk down to the point where I don't think I even exist. Everything about me is insignificant and unimportant and I am nothing more than a mere stain on the fabric of life.